My head cracked opened

My heart is lost in a sea of men,
A dark deep hole that never ends.
I cannot choose, I lack the strength
My choice on paper still remains blank.
I'll hurt someone no matter what I do,
Looking anywhere for some sort of clue.
Why is it always up to me?
Never seems to be made easy.
I cannot choose I lack the strength,
My will power is on fumes, soon enough an empty tank.
I care too much for this to work,
If I don't figure this out soon, I'll go bezerk
Am I overexaggerating? I think not
The answer to this problem, I haven't got.
I cannot choose I lack the strength,
A continuous cycle without an ending length.
I cannot choose, don;t make me do it,
I'd rather have them hate me, fuck, shit, screw it!